However hard I try, I am a typical Estonian, so don't expect me to show my feelings openly. But never forget that I do actually care and thank the higher powers for you being here with me daily.
I might be the goofy one always cracking the jokes and going along with silly coversations that in the end lead nowhere. I can be the quiet and serious one. Lately I have felt that I need more me time but that doesn't mean I don't need you. I might have been more serious lately but try and understand me, I have stuff to figure out inside my head and heart. As much as I'd like, I cannot always be the smiling and cheering girl and more and more I wish to discuss serious stuff but sometimes I feel it's hard to break the habit of goofing. So if I'm not in the mood, let me be and know that in my heart I still care so much about.
No matter where you are, I cannot say the words "I miss you" with a full heart. Not because I don't miss you but because as long as I know you're doing fine and having fun, I'm happy and have no selfish reason to be missing you. So I don't miss you but I'm glad for the moments that we can spend together.
I am blessed to have so many friends and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve you because I sometimes take you for granted and take more than I give. But it's not like that deep down inside, I just have a hard time admitting my feelings. You are special to me!
So appologies for me being bitter and cold but there'll be sunshiny days once again.
Yours truely,
Eevika
P.s. - This is not addressed to anyone particular but to every single one of you who consider me as a friend.
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