Summary of 2007

I know it's been a while and the New Year is long began but nevertheless... better late than never. I thought I'd bring out the high and low points of the year. In general, it was a very good year and I have a lot to take with me to the following ones but I hope that 2008 will be even better!



Highpoints: (not chronologically)

• Graduationg high school. One period of my life ended that day and a new one began. How could this not be a high point no. 1? I'd argue about the gold medal. Yeah, of course it was important to me and this was what I wanted from high school but it wasn't exactly for me. It was more like fulfilling the others' (my parents, my friends, my teachers (sic!)) expectations. I'm sure happy that it gave me 3 points I needed to get into English philology which I love studying but otherwise... I still don't know what to think of it.
• Coming to Tartu. This comes together with getting into the university. I wasn't so sure about Engish at first but now I'm getting more and more confident about my choice. I really like even the most boring Grammar seminars at 8.30 in the mornings. And by my GPA at the moment it looks like it suits me perfectly :D And the people I've met here... are incredibly wonderful. They are so much different from anyone I've met so far. Our own little crew of English philologists who are always ready for a night out and play board games and just laugh and be crazy... It's so heart-warming!
• Time spent with friends. I think this needs no explanation and I really can't bring out one certain event. The six-pack, or 7 pack actually, we have is still special no matter where the roads may lead us. Even when in years, our lives might not me so much connected, we still have our memories and our own jokes. This will never go away.
• Family. The closer circle and the extnded version. Year 2007 was the year I realized that no matter how hard we might try to escape it, blood is thicker than water. And I'mactually quite enjoying it, I have pretty great family. And during the end of the year I even got things sorted out with my sister and our relationship has improved from then on!
• 30 Seconds To Mars and The Echelon. It was in April that I first saw the video for "The Kill". Hated it the first time and switched the channel. The second time I could watch it till the end but still... nothing special. And then came the third and fourth time... before I knew I was moshing around the flat screaming "You're killing, killing me...". And from then on my soul was sold. But this is the kind of a devil I like. I bought S/T and it has actually helped me (I still have a shiver going down my spine when I hear "End of the Beginning" and I sware to God, if they play it at London, I'm fucking crying in the crowd! :P). The people I've met through The Echelon are really great, starting with my lovely Elerin and finishing with those world-wide! It really has brought a different taste to my life. And I don't really care about being Emo-Eeva :D (you know what I mean :P)

Lowpoints (there were those as well)

• Separation of the six-pack. You guys were my first real friends and I know this is only the start but it will never be what it used to be in high school. But this is inevtable and I'm so happy for every single of of you when you are happy and doing what you enjoy.
• Not going to England. Although I don't have regrets now, it was a pretty shitty situation back then. I was quite lost for a while and had no purpose or motivation.
• All those times when I had to cry myself to sleep. Yeah, those nights did happen. I think it was very much to do with trying to figure out what the hell am I doing and who I am. I don't think, no, I know I still haven't figured that out but still...

It might be my overloaded brain but this was what I could remember at the moment about the year 2007. Like I said earlier, it was a very good year.

I think I can say that it was the year I finally started to live.

It's the end, here today
But I will build a new beginning
Take some time, find a place
And I will start my own religion
As the day divides the night
Here we are searching for a sign

Watch the men multiply
See them ease out of the circle
Watch your friends run and hide
Help them fall back in the cycle
Here we are searching...

You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because of
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be sense
Our searching for a sign..