Can't you see that it's just raining... there's no need to go outside... Because baby, you hardly even notice, when I try to tell you, this song is meant to keep you from doing what you're supposed to.. like waking up to early, maybe we could sleep in, I'll make you banana pancakes, pretend like it's the weekend now... (J.Johnson- Banana Pancakes)

Fortunately we don't have to pretend, because it is weekend. I just woke up Saturday morning, or should I say lunch, and I know this sounds like a treason but I loved the weather. The rain was beating at my window and it was really windy and I knew I don't have to go anywhere or do anything. I could just sit comfortably at home and watch the miserable weather, have a cup of hot chocolate and read newspapers. I really felt like doing nothing on Saturday and I don't feel any guilt for that. I was just sleeping through the whole day and it feels great!

I just found out that Good Charlotte is coming to Estonia and even though I'm not a fan of their music, it's still quite good and I've rocked around my home singing some of them alond (The River, The Anthem are a few examples). And it's not that often that artists like this come to Estonia and if there's a chance so close by, I just have to use it. And as soon as the tickets come on sale I'll grab two of them for me and my sister who is longing for a rock-out :) Wohoo.. And my friend from the Netherlands who has seen them live for 6 (sic!) times says they are really good on stage, so I'm hoping for the best!

I know that people who read this blog of mine hardly think of me as an emo and it's just a joke among us but I really got interestd in that subject: what is emo music and who are emos? This part here is not so interesting, so you may skip it :P So I opened up my friend Wikipedia and it says (http://http//en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emo_(music): Emo is a style of rock music which describes several independent variations of music with common stylistic roots. Such use of the term has been the subject of much debate. In the mid-1980s, the term emo described a subgenre of hardcore punk which originated in the Washington, DC music scene. Starting in the mid-1990s, the term emo began to refer to the indie scene. As the remaining indie emo bands entered the mainstream, newer bands began to emulate the mainstream style. As a result, the term "emo" became a vaguely defined identifier rather than a specific genre of music.

Antother site (http://www.fourfa.com/index.html) suggests the term screamo to indetify the bands genereally labeled as emo nowadays because. And when looking at the names of the bands listed in both sources as the original emocore... I haven't heard anything about them..

But what I actually want to say is that you can label music and people anyway you want to but I prefer not to do that. So call me whatever you want and the music that i listen to what ever you like, it's just a matter of terminology :D

So, I now thought I'd share some discoveries with you. So the "Eevika's recommendations corner" is opened again!

• Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk. I've just started to read the book but I quite like it already. It's about an ex-supermodel who looses half her face in a "car accident" and is unable to speak. She goes on a trip to find her future. The book is very usual Palahniuk's book, using certain same schemes as Fight Club. In the latter the narrator uses the frase "I'm Joe's smirking revenge" to describe his feelings, in Invisible Monsters the remarks of the narrator are used as the words of fashion photographer: "Give me patience. Flash. Give me a break. Flash". I really recommend the book, although it has a plot that might be hard to follow as the events are not given chronologically.


• The prelude of AFI's song Miss Murder. It was the night when I was seaching for music to listen to and Elerin recommended me this song. The song itself isn't worth much in my opinion. And please mind the band and their looks, but think about the words and even if you are not a listener of lyrics, just hear the rhythm, the bells and the choir and how it all goes together so well. You can listen to only the prelude here:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-AYhozNbao&feature=related


• LostAlone. The band who is going to be the support act for 30 Seconds To Mars in the UK tour and in London. I actually quite like their music, at least the 4 songs they have on their MySpace (http://www.myspace.com/lostalonemusic), I especially like Standing on the Ruin, it's quite a long song but I like the melody and all. Warning!! This is rock, I mean a real rock music!!


• Herring with sour cream and cotton cheese. My main dish here in Tartu, put some salt on it as well, delicious! And take into consideration that I hated cotton cheese before I came here, now I can't live without it. Especially for students, quick and good :P

I have a new hair cut. Again. I quite like it, it's nice and messy and I pretty much can throw away the comb :) And I'm going to dance lesson again on Monday. Like Dana said, dancing is for our souls, it's a passion. And then to Tallinn on Tuesday to meet with Elerin and hang out with my sister!

16 days till London.

Letters from abnormality..

*Sigh* Most of the exams are over and only one to go at the end of January. And I've been out two nights in a row. This is not normal. Like it's not normal that most people have their Linguistics mark but I don't... I guess were living in abnormality.

Tuesday night was out in Zavood with Helen, Ulvika and Pille-Riin, joined by Dagmar and Pille-Riin's roomie. We had nice time, not the best but still! And when we got there a guy stood by our table and stared there. I was just about the say something not normal, when I realized that it was Siim. How come I never recognize him? But luckily he recognized me and this is always nice :) I crashed my bed at about 4 am...

Yesterday I was out with Maarja. At first we were at her place, had a few beer and just some talk. Then suddenly 2 men and a woman walk in to check whether they have an electric cooker and water and electric indications... we were all stunned. And then this woman asks: "How many of you lives here? 3?" Väino: "No, 2" Woman: "Okay, you have guests, I have nothing against it". We all looked at each other... this was quite a laugh...

Later me and Maarja went to Püssirohukelder. A strange place... I mean it was nice to sit there and have a drink and talk but the people there, most of them quite drunk and enjoying the weird music. No, don't get me wrong they managed to play a few good songs as well. And then at the end a guy comes to our table with the stunning pick up line: "Hey, what's up?". I was already impressed... not! But I thought it might not be the best idea to be a bitch and tell them to piss off but I didn't exactly show any affection either. And they were so obviously "ossid". C'mon, you like f***ing Nikki and say that Metallica is crap... well, I was so obviously dressed: my black sweater with white collar and turn-ups, black pants and a black dress on top of them. you really think I like Nikki? Please... Fortunately we got rid of them soon.

When I came home, I expected to creep into bed but I discoverd Liisa and Karin are still up trying to writ their essay. Liisa soon went to sleep but Karin went to bed about half an hour ago...

So today I thought why not read Liina's Georgian trip blog. It was so interesting and I hope hey will continue to write it. And there was this thorn in my heart, it seemed so much fun and I've met some of the people she was there and they are so great. I want to have something like this, too! And I do realise that she's 10 years older than me (sshh, don't tell her that) but I guess that's the problem with little sisters: I want what she's having and I want it now, I don't want to wait for 10 years!

So today I'm gonna enjoy my freedom. I'll go to the library to return my books and hopefully find something good to read. And then snuggle up in bed while reading. Later hopefully go and see volleyball (or should I say the dancers :P). Kätlin asked me to come to the club with her but I'm really not in the mood. I've been out for two nights and I guess I'm getting old. I don't like clubbing anymore, I'd rather sit somehere and have a great talk...

Oh, and yesterday me and Maarja dreamt how wonderful it would be if we all were in Tartu.. all 6.. or 7 of us! Have our own flat, our own little Italian family :)

And finally, could someone please give me some good music, I've been looking for something new but everything I try and listen isn't it. So if anyone has any good ideas... let them show! :)

I wanna be a rockstar...

... coz then I bloody wouldn't have to wrestle with idiotic things like Linguistics. Who's up to make an terrorist organisation to kill all linguists? Can I see any of arms?

Well, as you can assume, my exam was hell. I was so angry with my lecturers because they take a masohistic pleasure out of torturing their students. And what the lecturer/chick said before: "It's very easy, have fun!" Fun my ass!! Frigging bitch!!

But it was nothing that couldn't be solved with cake, ice cream, a glass of wine and dying my hair :D



Today I went to see Jaak Mae Cup. Of course thanks to my "quick" family I missed out on Ave's skiing but I hope she forgives me (*puppy eyes*). But it was fun, even though you were pretty much to your knees in mud and the rain was pouring down and the only snow was the narrow ski track... what a feeling I must say. But at least I could cheer "Hõissa, kauboi!" to the skiers (after that my mom promised to place me in an institution :P). And practise my photo taking abilities (excelent, most of the time I got clear pictures of the track, no human beings there :D This is my favourite picture, the snow is still in the air, but no skier :D
But I felt so sorry for Södergren (or however his name's spelled): to break your stick twice... poor baby!



I'm so tired of the frigging exams, I can't wait for Wednesday morning when I wake up and I don't have to study! I know I have one exam to take at the end of January but there's no need to start studying for it now! I already planned to go shopping, second-hand shops shopping then :D And Tuesday night, I kinda promised to go out with Helen to Zavood... hmm, worth to think about.



Friday night was again a great night with my sister. Although she managed to shock me with the news that she doesn't listen to song lyrics, I still think we can manage. I'll keep bugging her until she is forced to pay attention to them :P



So, back to the title... wanna come to my band? I play triangle!

Summary of 2007

I know it's been a while and the New Year is long began but nevertheless... better late than never. I thought I'd bring out the high and low points of the year. In general, it was a very good year and I have a lot to take with me to the following ones but I hope that 2008 will be even better!



Highpoints: (not chronologically)

• Graduationg high school. One period of my life ended that day and a new one began. How could this not be a high point no. 1? I'd argue about the gold medal. Yeah, of course it was important to me and this was what I wanted from high school but it wasn't exactly for me. It was more like fulfilling the others' (my parents, my friends, my teachers (sic!)) expectations. I'm sure happy that it gave me 3 points I needed to get into English philology which I love studying but otherwise... I still don't know what to think of it.
• Coming to Tartu. This comes together with getting into the university. I wasn't so sure about Engish at first but now I'm getting more and more confident about my choice. I really like even the most boring Grammar seminars at 8.30 in the mornings. And by my GPA at the moment it looks like it suits me perfectly :D And the people I've met here... are incredibly wonderful. They are so much different from anyone I've met so far. Our own little crew of English philologists who are always ready for a night out and play board games and just laugh and be crazy... It's so heart-warming!
• Time spent with friends. I think this needs no explanation and I really can't bring out one certain event. The six-pack, or 7 pack actually, we have is still special no matter where the roads may lead us. Even when in years, our lives might not me so much connected, we still have our memories and our own jokes. This will never go away.
• Family. The closer circle and the extnded version. Year 2007 was the year I realized that no matter how hard we might try to escape it, blood is thicker than water. And I'mactually quite enjoying it, I have pretty great family. And during the end of the year I even got things sorted out with my sister and our relationship has improved from then on!
• 30 Seconds To Mars and The Echelon. It was in April that I first saw the video for "The Kill". Hated it the first time and switched the channel. The second time I could watch it till the end but still... nothing special. And then came the third and fourth time... before I knew I was moshing around the flat screaming "You're killing, killing me...". And from then on my soul was sold. But this is the kind of a devil I like. I bought S/T and it has actually helped me (I still have a shiver going down my spine when I hear "End of the Beginning" and I sware to God, if they play it at London, I'm fucking crying in the crowd! :P). The people I've met through The Echelon are really great, starting with my lovely Elerin and finishing with those world-wide! It really has brought a different taste to my life. And I don't really care about being Emo-Eeva :D (you know what I mean :P)

Lowpoints (there were those as well)

• Separation of the six-pack. You guys were my first real friends and I know this is only the start but it will never be what it used to be in high school. But this is inevtable and I'm so happy for every single of of you when you are happy and doing what you enjoy.
• Not going to England. Although I don't have regrets now, it was a pretty shitty situation back then. I was quite lost for a while and had no purpose or motivation.
• All those times when I had to cry myself to sleep. Yeah, those nights did happen. I think it was very much to do with trying to figure out what the hell am I doing and who I am. I don't think, no, I know I still haven't figured that out but still...

It might be my overloaded brain but this was what I could remember at the moment about the year 2007. Like I said earlier, it was a very good year.

I think I can say that it was the year I finally started to live.

It's the end, here today
But I will build a new beginning
Take some time, find a place
And I will start my own religion
As the day divides the night
Here we are searching for a sign

Watch the men multiply
See them ease out of the circle
Watch your friends run and hide
Help them fall back in the cycle
Here we are searching...

You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because of
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be sense
Our searching for a sign..