Family affairs...

I'm not having the best week right now. I guess the most obvious thing is this row I had/ am having with my mom... I thought about going home to Türi on Thursday (i.e. today) but as we are having a party with our course tomorrow and when I suggested the idea that I'm not coming, my dear coursemates didn't want to hear anything like this. And of course I wanna go there as well: it's my course for god sake! And when I told my mom that I'd changed my mind and that I was going home on Saturday she was upset. She was so worried about not having enough same kind of tea cups and the windows not being washed. I don't understnad why make a fuss around something so simple like me inviting a few of my best friends over for a chat! And I know she's going to nag with me the whole weekend and I won't be able to enjoy my birthday. I actually don't like my birthdays for that very reason: so much fuss just to say "Happy birthday!" and then continue wathing the telly. Right now birthdays have become the occasions to have an opportunity to meet with people I love!

But I spoke to mom on the phone a while ago and she seemed somewhat calmer and not so upset with me. But that doesn't mean we won't have a fight on weekend..

Luckily I've found a great ally in my sister. Tuesday night whenI talked to my mom and got so fired up, she was the one I called to and shared my tears to on the phone. She was all so supportive. Even when I told her like I wouldn't come home if it's all like that. She only said: "Sure! It's your birthday, you have to enjoy it!". And that is exactly what I'd want to do. Just be and have a normal day, go crazy with my friends... So it's good to have a bigger sister after all :D

So on Tuesday (when I was so upset and all) my flatmate Karin asked me if I wanted to go out. At first I thought no, but then I why not. So I went out with her and some people from her course, History students that is then. At first we sat in Maailm and had a beer and then we went to Zavood, the notorious pub in Tartu. It was pretty nice and a lot of laughing. I crushed my bed round 3 am to wake up 7.20 am and go to my Grammar seminar. The funny thing was that I was so much more awake in the morning seminars than usually.

Yesterday, i.e. Wednesday I had such a good time with my coursemates. We had a cooking and wine night at Kärt-Katrin's place. She has a tiny little kitchen but it managed to accomodate about 6 people and we cooked chicken moussaka (delicious!!!) and Kärt had also made blueberry cake. And we had lots of wine and played Alias. It was so much fun, I was together with Annika and we won! But I laughed just so hard and we had a great time jus talking. It's amazing (and I know I have said it before) what amazing friends I have found! And on Tuesday Ulvika came back from Gran Canaria and brought us Spanish Chrismas cookies which were so good!!! And also a small stone. I'm sure the course party shall be so much fun!

Today is Christmas all over. When I woke up today, the first thing my roomie Liisa said was that it's Christmas outside. And I looked out of the window and it has snowed during the night. And by the way, when I was coming home round 2 am at night I wasn't snowing. And they put up the lights on Town Hall square this morning and in the evening when I came from the uni it was so beautiful. And then my favourite lecture said she and some other professor had an idea to held a department christmas "party". Actually something like in a for we had the "Literary café" with Prof. McRae and some carol singing. It would be just wonderful... I can even believe myself that I'm so much in the season spirit...

I wish you all a great weekend!

Was it a dream?

I had the most beautiful dream this morning: I saw we were all at my place and then suddenly L. and J. where there as well. And I asked them how long they are staying in Estonia and they said that until January 2nd and then they promised to come to my birthday as well... And then I woke up to this dark November reality and of course I know you are not coming here! But I miss you all so much at the moment!! I'm so glad to see you on Saturday and I believe we have a lot of catching up to do. And what concerns about J. and L. - spare a thought on us here in the dark November!

Today was once again a study marathon. Only 4 hours today but still at 5 pm me and Helen once again lost it. Helen invented the word/name Warpole and so she tried to make me write down that word instead of the correct stuff. Which eventually she succeeded in: instead of Robert Bruce (an interesting guy who killed a bloke in the church and then didn't want to get punished and crowned himself the king of Scotland) I wrote Robert Warpole :D We didn't made anymore further after that. Stuck with The Hundred Years War and stuff :P I guess it's time I send a few lines to Kate and Charli from the 30STM boards and ask for their guidance :D

This weekend I discovered Foo Fighters for myself. I knew them before but some how the song "Long Road to Ruins" became the song of the weekend for me. Along side with "The Pretender". I advise you to check them out. I know they are the two newest singels and there's so much more about Foo Fighters but I'm only half way through with the discovery! So this is the paragraph: "Eevika's recommendations" :D

But it's only 72 days until London trip! YAY!! :D I just can't wait for it!!!

Love you and see some of you really-really soon!

Long Road to Ruins...

First of all, as you can see - my blog has changed its location. Just an act of vainity: it's so much popular to post here than in Myspace, people are accessed so much easily! Ahh.... the admiration of oneself. And I'm still continuing in English... just a professional kink :P





Well, its been a while since I've posted anything but I'll try to focus on the interesting/important.. Well, I guess I'll start with my coursemate Liisa's birthday on November 14. Interesting party a lot of new people there. And also my great coursemates :)The whole thing started at 8 pm ... by 1 am there were about 6 (out of about 30) there. Others were either really pissed or just left to a nightclub. And why... TEQUILA and vodka mixed with each other and everything else :) Yes, I know what you are thinking of but I was on cider and champaigne only! But that doesn't mean I didn't do anything stupid... oh, no. I discovered that there was this guy from my dorm, in the next room to be more percise.. So we went to his kitchen and after talking about an hour we decided to play "Spin the bottle "... and things happened. And then I also saw him the next days..


The thing is that now I'm stuck... I've no idea what to do with it... I feel awkward and he fucking lives next door!! I'm screwed coz obviously I don't want anything.. he's a nice guy and it's great to talked to him but that's all!

Then last Saturday I had just fabulous time with my cousin. It's so great that with her I can talk so easily even though she's like 13 years older than me. It's like we were talking last time how she graduated from the uni 10 years ago and my sis graduated from high school... and me? I finished 2nd grade :D But now it's like were all the same age. And I really hope we'll meet each other more often.

I have also been brainwashed (unsuccessfully though) by Southwestern to go and sell books in the USA. Sounds nice but

1. 13 hours a day 6 days a week 12 weeks - I have better to do with my summer than work my arse off, like visiting Christie in Barcelona and Marion in Paris :D
2. this is so pyramid system - and I don't trust those things. I put like 30,000 EEK under the whole thing and there's a good chance of coming back without even making it even... no thanks

So I said no after meeting her a few times I finally said no which I had intended to do from the very start!

And I've entered the study mode: last Monday I went to the library with Helen and Annika to answer the British History revision questions. We spent 6 (!!!) hours there. I was so messed up in the end and my lecture notes seemed absolutely hilarious: "Why Caesar? Why?" and Helen swared she read that I had wrote "emo" to describe one of the kings :D

Thursday I went to a fabulous concert: Indigolapsed. An amazing Estonian band, beautiful music. I had never heard of them but my coursemates draged me along and it was so sweet: after the first song Kärt-Katrin and Helen both looked at me like: "Well, how you like it?" :D I LOVED IT!!!

This weekend was interesting: me and my sis were both home and we didn't fight! I guess this one talk we had over MSN really had some impact. It feels so great, we didn't have any deep conversation but we were having a good time at least! :D and I just ate like a pig! :D And Liinu made muffins for breakfast! Gotta just love home and family :D

Now I have a tiresome week ahead!

My sweethearts: hugs! Love you and miss you! :*